I used to think that when I could not sleep I just needed to get up and read, play a game, pray, etc. Surely it would put me back to la-la land for a few more hours. This morning that is not the case. So I decided to look over some old blogs and realized how really bad I am at this blogging thing. Even though what I blog, or what I feel I have to say to the world is not half bad.
It's almost time to turn the page on yet another year. I don't do resolutions. I do set goals, and looking back on 2013 I did complete some goals.
1. I did lose 20 lbs, gained it back, lost it again, gained back 10 of what I had lost, lost 7......this could go on forever
2. I did get to return to Trinidad and it was amazing, and I will return again.
3. I developed a great friendship with a co-worker that challenges me, holds me accountable and makes me laugh (everyone should have one friend like this). And even though she has somehow managed to live without Facebook, I love her still.
4. If it was even possible, I fell more in love with Terry.
5. I learned to accept people just the way they are. And I learned that not everyone is in your life for a lifetime and sometimes you have to just let things go so you can be a better person.
6. I started writing a book that has been 5 years in development.
I could look back on this list and feel totally accomplished. I didn't accomplish everything I wish I could have, but I seem to have managed to grow through-out this year.
I'm thankful for many things, but one thing I am truly thankful for is that God has kept me this year so that I could really focus on the important things and not let the little things rattle me so much. And I'm proud of that. I have learned a few lessons the hard way, and one of those lessons is to not take myself so seriously that I feel like a failure when I don't manage to check off these huge list I create. In the past, I would measure my self worth, my accomplishments, etc. by my ability to complete a list.
This past year has been one of transformation, change and expectation. I expect 2014 to be no more or no less than the same. Each year is pretty much like this, with one exception, I seem to be transforming, changing and expecting the same things to happen that never happen. Why is that? If I'm honest with myself I will say its because while I expect everything and everyone around me to change, I'm not very good at it myself. Maybe this year I will just throw caution to the wind and see where the Lord leads me. Life is too short to live it by a list. I think I'm ready for the ride!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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